"No regrets" I say, "sieze the day" I say.

What do I have to do in life? What's the meaning of life?
Is it to have fun? Is it to grow up, be a parent?

These are questions that I can sit and think about for hours... What have I managed in life so far? 19 years have passed, what have I done?

Many questions, few answers.

I think about growing up, getting married, having children. And when I do, I get afraid. Where have my time gone? It feels like it was just a week ago I learned how to ride a bicycle, like it was yesterday that I got my first kiss.
Life passes too fast, stop and think for a moment.
What do you want to do?
Who do you want to be?

I wanna be a pro photographer, I wanna be able to make a living out of photography. It's tough.
I wanna be myself, why do you have be like everyone else?
There are so many others already.

I get depressed sometimes, I feel old. 19 years, and OLD. It's really bad, I haven't lived life lately.

Last year I went into a relationship, it lasted for about 15 months. But was it really worth all the effort?
15 months, you'll get alot of love... But what kind of life is that?
Love is complicated, new girl, new losses.

I've got a simple job, the salary is ok. But I get so damn tired of working. What kind of life is that?

New tattoo tomorrow, shadowing my "carpe diem" tattoo on my side. 3 hours of pain and pleasure.

Please share your thoughts with me.
Do you feel old?

Carpe diem, sieze the day, live life.